slow?

Its funny to think about now, but how in the world do you slow down a relationship of the heart? First of all you have to understand that any of these people i was communicating with could have been mr right...they all had the potential to be. Most of these men (without doing a single thing) were more suited to me than an entire list of what i wanted in a partner!
  Then of course, there are the ones you find physically attractive too. Only one base left, for the perfect home run!  When god moves two hearts together, and somehow your the only two people on the planet that could ever be so compatible, so perfect for one another, and so out of your mind crazy with how rediculous all this sounds, that you just KNOW it has to be right! This is the kind of love that is so deep you cant find human words to describe it, you get overwhelmed with joy thinking about it, and it changes the way you think, act, see and hear everything in your world! It brings out the best in you, but also knows the worst in you. It respects, it yearns, it links and it shares.
  So this brings me back to the question we started with. How in the world do you slow down a  relationship of the heart? YOU DONT. Not one that god has put together anyway.
  You see i very much trust god with my husband picking, as my device for such a job has been broken for, oh lets say 15yrs!!! I think he has it all figured out alittle better than i do right now. And god is making that evident in both our hearts.
  One problem, only minor. And whats a problem for God anyway? NOTHING...right? James lives on the otherside of the world. And we have yet to meet in person. And already god has made our hearts, minds and spirits so sewn together that we are ruined for any other relationship ever?! once again, crazy talk. I know i know, i am a 33 year old mum. I have my own business, dreams, goals, passions, an established life here in australia. And yet god has showed me this new, huge, awesome life that he has planned for me, my children and  what he is going to do through this new relationship. I have been asking god to direct my walk and believing he would for so long now, why is it i would question what i have received?....who am i to question? My spirit is seeking god, and god first and that is why i believe it when god tells me, this is for real.
  But i'm not sure the rest of those in my inner circle will be so happy. How do i explain something that i myself do not understand? It is a spiritual connection first and foremost. What about the children's fathers? (yes there are 2) things could get alittle overwhelming here if it wasnt for the peace i feel. but man oh man... this is what it is. And i have to start letting everyone know so they can be prepared for what is going to happen next...